Hugs

So, its been awhile since i blog about me and my beloved boyfriend, Aiman Amsyar. Everything's okay. I swear, hes the best ive ever had. He understands every single thing about me. Like i said, we're getting stronger  day by day and I love him more and more everyday. We argue like we married already but he'll always be the one who'll give up first cause he doesnt like us to argue over stupid little thing. You know, its hard to handle me. Im selfish, thats why. Dear sayang, im writing you this blog in hopes it will touch your heart. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. You have made me the happiest i have ever been. You are sincere, caring, loving man, and I wouldn't trade you for the world. I am so thankful and blessed that you love me as much as i love you. You were there for me when no one else was and when no one else understood. I want you to know that no matter what happens i have always love you and always will. And i just need to tell you that you are the answer to all of my prayers and we will make it through this. Ive told you many times and i still want to tell you again that I really thank Allah for you in my life. Those little things that you did for me will be always kept in my heart, where you'll always be. I know at times im getting out of hand and hard to handle, your patience is always the alternative for us. As a result, we dont quarrel often. Thanks for all these, sayang. I never thought i would find someone like you to share my life with. I love the way you make me laugh, how we tell each other everything, how we do everything together. I love you more than word can express. You molded me into something rare and beautiful. I love your terrific sense of humor. I wish more than anything that you and I could grow together , love together, learn together and laugh together, forever. I promise to love you as much as i can , as beat fast as i can, and for long as i can. And no matter what, its very important to me for you to know that you are irreplaceable spirit that will always be a part of me. Love always, Syahirah. 

A day to remember

I really had a blast with my loved ones today. Only me and him. We went to Hotel Carlton for karaoke. He kissed me for the first time and I was like "omgg he just kissed me..... omg am i dreaming or what" then he hugged me. I feel so safe around him. He's like the most wonderful guy i've ever met, for god's sake. Im not lying. He's the sweetest among the sweetest. I told him all my problems cause I trust him and he's really understanding. When my heart is quickly breaking , and I'm forced to search my mind for something to stop aching, you are the one I find. When i'm feeling helpless and weak, you give me the strength to move on. When im broken and cannot speak, you give me the words through song. The happiness I know with you is like nothing I've felt before. I'd never do anything to make you cry. Im sorry if I do something to make you really mad, it only comes back and makes me really sad. I really do love you and everything you are. I hope this relationship gets really far. I'll never get you out, I simply dont know how. In fact, im thinking of you right now, you're everything I need and everything to me. You always make me smile just by being there. I hope you know how much I do really care. This is why I love you, I've made a huge list. The list goes on forever and never will it end neither will our relationship you'll always be my friend not just a simple friend but a special friend at that I want to spend my whole life with you. I love you too much, my love.

Went well

You made me realize who I really am and have showed me the right way and I know I'll do anything just to make our relationship stay. I love you. Now and always and forever until I die. Believe me when I say this cause its true. My love for you is everything. Without you im nothing and I dont know what i would do without you, all I know is my heart would be torn apart or may? And I believe you'll never leave me or even try to hurt me right sayang? Sorry if I'm wrong. I know, you would do anything to have a smile on my face and make me happy. Im so thankful for being everything to me. You're so wonderful. How I wish we can spend all of our tomorrows with happiness and free of the sorrows. I hope we can get many many years together in which love and joy. Both of us can gather and I pray to Allah to give us strength today, to learn to pick the thorns from each other's way and spread flowers of love, comfort and pleasure. I hope we can live together forever in love. This is us, never alone. We have each other wether at the same place or by phone, right budak bucuk? :p You will always be there for me through thick or thin and thats one of the reason I love you. I love you with things that I have never said. I know that thousands of words are not enough to tell you my heartly feelings, my emotions, my passion towards you. So, I want you to see my feelings, my emotions and my passion in my eyes and through it my heart. I wish you could my face and know about what i want to say. Btw, I've got an x-tray last evening and they found you in my heart. The doctor said if they remove you , I would die because I can't live without you. Hehehe im done sayang. Thanks for reading. I love you so much :*

19th of February 2012

Start from today, Aiman Amsyar will always and forever mine. It just.....I love him too much. I love him more than you could ever imagine and no one can ever change that. NO ONE can take him from me. Okay let me tell you. I was very nervous when I was going to meet you for the first time, I could feel my heart coming out. You're not a number but someone who touches my heart. When I say your name I can feel my heart with so many different feelings to explain, these are wonderful things. Since the day we first met, I knew it was love. Allah answered my prayers, you came down from above. I promise to be your strength whenever you fall weak. I promise to be your voice when you cant find the words. I promise to be your eyes when you cannot see. I promise to your ears when you cant hear. I promise to always tell you whats real when you want to hear the truth. I promise to be your dream catcher to chase away you're every fear. I promise to be your smile when you're frowning. I promise to always cheer you up when you are down or blue. I promise to give you faith when you are feeling inscure. I promise to listen when you need to talk. I promise to tell you no lies , just what is true. I promise to always lend you my shoulder for when you need to cry. I promise to always hold you when you need someone. I promise to always care for you ,wherever you are I promise to always be there. I promise to never hurt you and break your heart. Ya know, I'll try my best for you, sayang. I would do anything for my loved ones, I swear. I will always love you, Aiman Amsyar <3